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Indigo/ there's really no telling how old one "feels" or how mature they are, and I think saying how old we are based on looks is a little obsolete, since we can just change our forms to any age, it doesn't matter much

I guess

4:14 PM

He just keeps telling me he's 26 Which is obviously not how long he's been alive for, since I am 17-

Indigo/ it's likely better to just let our maturity speak for itself

i guess so

In the tulpa community, yeah, that's more common

4:16 PM

It's not in other plural communities

Mine consider themselves their real age. The time that has passed since they were created. Trixie is 6-7 years old, but looks like she's in her late teens early 20s Sweetie is a bit younger than that by about 6 months or so. but she looks like 12ish. She doesn't consider herself to be young, she just likes the youthful form.

Mm, I suppose that's how it is for Lucio, then

Indigo/ we all look like men in their 20s

Wow...

[You seem amazed a lot]

Indigo/ he does

Though Sweetie is a merge between two of my tulpa which seems to regress their... abilities? I'm not sure. But after they merged I had to start working on Sweetie again to get her to where she was before the merge. We are past that point now. But at first it was almost like having a new one.

Well... Not really

4:25 PM

I'm not good with words

[Oh. K. ]

4:26 PM

Yeah, I get you on that

Wasn't really expecting that and I don't know if I've even mentioned it before anywhere. But age came up. So.

Half my time is spent repeating "Okay", "Yeah", "Alright" and the like... over and over

Indigo/ Piano was a merge too

4:26 PM

Indigo/ (long story)

Okay, won't ask

We are still mostly working on Sweetie day to day to get her at the same level I guess you would say that Trixie is at.

Indigo/ he considered himself to be a 7 or so year old tulpa as a merge, but when the merge split he considered himself, like, 5 months (edited)

Trixie mostly just hangs back and observes.

Hey, assuming you're the right Scythe I found on Tulpa.info... you've only ever mentioned Sweetie or Trixie? What happened to, uh... Aurora?

Oh. That's Trixie. She wanted to change her name

Ohhh, okay

4:28 PM

That's cool

I found myself incapable of remembering the new name

Hah, right

Trixie got low key pissed and decided she didn't want to mess with it anymore

Got it Makes sense-

She says she wasn't. But. I was there. She was pissed.

[I get annoyed about things my host does too. Like repeating everything I think in my head like she needs to remember it all for some reason.] Well, at least it all worked out?

Trixie/ marginally. He still stresses over the stupidest things

[Honestly, I feel you on that a little] Heh... alright

Trixie/ he does that after every Single Conversation

Indigo/ our host is nearly obsolete lol

[Right? Like... why?]

Trixie/ he calls it preparing for any other conversations. I call it annoying

Obsolete?

Indigo/ we get on just fine without her input lol

[Right??? Like, that's exactly it. And I keep asking them if they're gonna end up saying it to anyone, and they always often say 'no'.]

4:32 PM

I just... worry a lot, that's all

4:33 PM

[Yeah, too much.]

Trixie/and That's why you end up with someone in your head badgering you into not

You know what?

So, your host is.... where, Indigo?

Indigo/ always watching

I don't know what @Eden ■■■■■■■

[I like you, Trixie] The things he makes me type out for him, honestly... Alright then... watching

4:34 PM

They don't want to be... in control much?

4:35 PM

Yeah, Edmond, you alright?

Indigo/ nope

Alright then

Trixie/ ha. You don't know me very well then

[Probably not, but you're already better than my host.] Hey....

Indigo/ once you learn to possess then you won't rely on your host to talk for you, you can say whatever you want

4:36 PM

Indigo/ I think I tried proxying someone a few days ago, they got frustrated at how restricting it was compared to possession

4:36 PM

Indigo/ since I could decide what they said or didn't said based on what I wanted to send

Trixie/ he still doesn't let me up front much. But we are more concerned getting sweetie back up and running properly

Indigo/ even unintentionally

[It wouldn't be a problem if she wasn't so afraid to type everything I said]

Indigo/ what's she afraid of?

Uh... you- probably could've just asked me that question... [She worries a lot about what other people think.] ...Yeah, that's pretty much it

Indigo/ pretty sure most of us are all in the same boat here, lol. We're all tulpas or people with tulpas, and so far you haven't said/done anything out-of-the-ordinary for this community

I was concerned for a while that other people might have thought I was... faking it. It was kind of hard to get over that sometimes... I thought it would happen in here eventually but I was still a little afraid...

4:38 PM

mm, okay...

4:38 PM

that makes me feel a bit better

4:38 PM

[Thank god]

Yeah

4:39 PM

I totally get you

4:39 PM

Trixie introduced herself to me before I was even aware of what a tulpa was. You have no idea

Yeah, that- uh, is very similar to my situation actually

4:40 PM

I know I remember wanting him but when I did, I wasn't entirely sure what a Tulpa was. The closest thing I had to them was 'Headmates' and then he just showed up suddenly while I was out shopping Fun time

Indigo/ we had two characters show up and claim they were sentient shortly after Lyra started working on Apollo, that was an experience for her

I wasn't even aware of that. I thought I was just finally going crazy for real

Indigo/ they were two really old characters she'd focused on for years and years, so it was believable enough (edited)

[It was hilarious, honestly.] He keeps saying he was there for a bit before hand, too [I was.] Yeah, I think I remember you saying that

4:41 PM

Oh, okay

4:41 PM

Lyra is the host?

Indigo/ yee

Alright

Indigo/ you'll rarely hear from her

So does she... speak to you often even though she's not in front?

Indigo/ she is in front

I mean, you know

Indigo/ and no she doesn't speak to us much

In control

4:42 PM

Oh, okay

Indigo/ she's passive and doesn't have thoughts of her own while we're fronting

Trixie/ it was funny at first. But when he started to tear himself up worrying over bring crazy I had to change my stance

Indigo/ if she started talking/thinking then it would interfere with our fronting a bit

Well at first at first the very first day was the most apologetic I have ever seen Trixie still

4:43 PM

She doesn't apologize much

[Eh, she sort of just started talking to me normally? The freaking out happened a lot when I started saying things even she didn't know. But I think a lot of it came from belief, or so she says...] I did kind of just start talking to him normally, so it wasn't much of a shock, really. At times, yes. I was sort of just... eh, off and on- like in the midst of freaking out but not really Ha, alright

Trixie/ because unlike others I actually think about shit before I do it.

Lucio won't admit, but he often helps me to calm down and cares more than he thinks [I do not!]